Someone has threatened to beat up a clown in order to make me smile.
This is either the sweetest or most twisted thing anyone has ever offered me â€“ either way, it got the point across. I have been in a lousy mood as of late. I think a large part of it has to do with the fact that me knee is acting up and hurting, but I also think that my stress level has gone a bit too high. I have been running pretty much non stop for way too long. Between work, travel, visits, bills, people moving in with me, people moving out, side projects and general goals that I have wanted to achieve, Iâ€™m about burned out. I donâ€™t think Iâ€™m the only one â€“ I know that Gordon is stressing over finals and such, and weez is out of gas as well.
Donâ€™t get me wrong â€“ I am extremely happy with what I am doing. I love my job, I love the travel, the people that have visited and moved in are people that I wanted to see and love spending time with. Also, some of the projects and goals have not been placed on me by others â€“ they are things that I set up for my self, things that I WANT to do, not need to do. The stress is fun in its own way, and I wouldnâ€™t trade the life I have right now for anything â€“ but something has to give. I need to rest once in a while.
And hence, I am declaring this Memorial Day weekend a stress free zone. Lisa is flying in to Phoenix so we can spend some much needed time together, but where normally even that would add some stress (what should we do, where should we go, what should we eat, etc.) â€“ Iâ€™m not going to let it. I am going to burn what is left of my mental fuel and do as much as I can through tomorrow evening; after that, I am shutting down for the weekend. No work, no worries, no stress. The hotel I am checking into tomorrow has a nice poolâ€¦ I think that is where I will be most of the time. I donâ€™t really care what I do â€“ that is going to be the theme of this weekend â€œI just donâ€™t careï¿½?. Donâ€™t expect me to make decisions, donâ€™t expect me to be productive â€“ Iâ€™m out.
Sometime Monday evening I will come back up. I will assess where I am and I will go back to doing what I love with full tank of gas. I think this is all that I need â€“ I feel better already just thinking about the idea of nothing.
So, if you donâ€™t hear from me this weekend, Iâ€™ll get back to you next week. I suggest you take a break too â€“ everyone needs one once in a while. Save the clowns of the world a beating and relax. I know I will.